Spring Break

Over spring break, I set to the task of organizing all of the songs that I have ever written. All of my songs were sitting in my dresser drawer, hand written in a couple of notebooks. A few of them are scribbled on assorted forms of paper. For instance, there's a few written on napkins and one written on a receipt. I've always been afraid that something would happen and they would get destroyed. I really wanted to have them backed up somewhere. I thought that typing them all would take an hour or two maximum, but it ended up taking much longer than I had originally planned. Rereading everything was a very interesting experience. It was as if I were reading about the past two years of my life, reliving it through my songs. It really made me realize a lot of things about myself. Most of what I wrote over the past year is so much easier to identify with now. I honestly learned a lot about myself through this process. I can say that my spring break was extremely beneficial.
I think that this song best sums up my past year. I wrote it over the break and it is entitled Better.
This didn’t quite turn out the way I wanted it to be/I’ve learned to find my strength in moments of vulnerability/And yeah I might get battered and my heart might take a beating/But it’s not worth not knowing where something might be leading//And every dead end road that I have come to meet/Will take me one step closer to a life on easy street/And all these scars I have I wouldn’t trade for anything/Love and loss is better than not feeling anything//You promised me the moon, the stars, the sky/Being innocent and naïve I embraced every lie/And yeah it may have taken all of me to pull on through/Just believe me when I say I don’t regret loving you//’Cause every dead end road that I have come to meet/Will take me one step closer to a life on easy street/And all these scars I have I wouldn’t trade for anything/Love and loss is better than not feeling anything/Through every heartbreak and forfeit of love/I’ve learned to find the courage to show all that I’m make of/And all these scars I have I wouldn’t trade for anything/Love and loss is better than not feeling anything//I don’t know where you are right now or if you’re thinking of me/But I have finally admitted we weren’t meant to be/I used to cry but now the tears have left my eyes/And I want to thank you for making me realize//That every dead end road that I have come to meet/Will take me one step closer to a life on easy street/And all these scars I have I wouldn’t trade for anything/Love and loss has taught me everything/You have helped me find everything//